Tightly Wound Much?
I am writing this on July 2nd.Ā Looking back at my calendar, I have pretty much been on the go since March,Ā and at full throttle since May. Today, after a driver brake-checked me and I got out of the car at a stoplight to have a little face time with the driver, I realizedĀ I am overwound like a rubber band on a balsa wood airplane. You want it to fly so badly that you just keep winding and winding that prop.
Iāve also been fighting with Yahoo Small business because their email servers have been down more than they have been up lately. And I like my email address to work. Just saying. The wonderful Mumbai based tech support team is nice and all, but they just donāt get it.
I am overwound like a rubber band on aĀ balsa wood airplane. You want it to fly so badly that you just keep winding and windingĀ that prop.
On top of all this I have a summerĀ cold. I was hopeful that it was just allergies, but no. Itās a full-on cold. So yeah, overwound.
Needless to say, I donāt do well when Iām in this pattern and the hardest thing in the world for me to do is slow down. Way down. My slow gears often look like other peopleās overdrives. I know that going down this current road leads to bends that eventually break.
You might be feeling this too.Ā What to do? Iām not going to preach to youĀ here. Itās just what I do. It may not be for you.
Consult my dog. I am serious. My dog, Bruce, is a rescued Pit Bull who, as far as anyone can tell, spent a lot of his life in a dog fighting operation and because of his smaller size was used as a sparring dog. A professional victim. Bruce never complains. He never has a bad day. He always sees things for what they are. Heās never pissed off about what the past did to him. So we chat. A lot. And it helps. A lot.
Bruce never complains. He never has a bad day. He always sees things for what they are. Heās never pissed off about what the past did to him.
Change my food. Iāve been really strict with my diet and my eating. Fasting 16 hours. Only eating between noon and 8 pm. And only eating certain things. The results have been marvelous. And Iām not suggesting that I go on the Ice Cream Diet favored in the summer by many. I am, however, going to look for some different things to eat. To cook some of my fave foods (namely Thai) and enjoy that journey. My more regimented approach means that I donāt take time to savor and to engage in the procurement and preparation. And maybe even in sharing my skills with others.
Change my company. A few days ago, I tweeted: āMisery loves company and Happiness could care lessā. Meaning, that somehow, when I am not doing so well, I seem to find others to bellyache with. Bad. Itās the equivalent of driving at the back of the pack and wondering why you got in the wreck. Being a solitary dudeĀ has pluses and minuses and if I pay attention to what I am saying inside my head and to others, I can feel that happiness.
āMisery loves company and Happiness could care lessā.
Change my music. By now I hope you know that I have spent most of my life as a lover of the bass guitar. Itās my instrument. And few other passions have held my attention as much as having my fingers on the big strings. But in my busy state, I havenāt had any bass in my hands for a long while now. No outside gigs to fill in. No studio calls.Ā No worship sets. No punk. No country. No metal. No prog rock. So as of today, itās back to my 14-year old self. Wearing out the rewind button and learning (relearning) to play. Iāll put on Rushās āMoving Picturesā and Geddy Lee will lend me his smile, and maybe some of his hair. And I will remember why I fell in love with the bass. Todayās Tom Sawyer, Mean Mean Prideā¦.
Change my sleep. When I am over-stretched, I donāt sleep much. And when I do sleep, I have vivid dreams. Some call them nightmares. So itās time to take notice and do better with sleep. Now that I realize the quality of my sleep pretty much has sucked, I can change.
Change my Messiah Complex. If you never read or remember any of my drivel, please take this in. The world will be OK without you for a moment. And the world will suck without you forever. Taking a moment to regroup is fine, because if you donātĀ you may not get that choice again. IāmĀ dead serious. If you think that anything you are doing is so important that you work yourself into heart attack, panic attack, stroke, major depressive episode or any other version thereof, you are a fool. Plain talk. Today, I purged a couple things from my calendar that were āniceā and a couple things that were āimportantā and reforged some things that were critical. It will be fine. They will be fine. And most important, I will be better suited to the task.
The world will be OK without you for a moment. And the world will suck without you forever.
Change what play means. For many of us in the business, we canāt get away from the business. We play golf. We have drinks in the grill. We hang with people we know and maybe even work for. Hereās the question⦠why? Why tie yourself to this and try to convince yourself that if you arenāt actively growing grass, you arenāt working. Bullshit. Show me any turfhead worth their salt who doesnāt play their own place or any other with an experienced and detail-seeking eye. Sorry. Thatās work. Go play. Go and get away. Even if just for a bit. Catch a fish. Ride a bike. Take a tour of the jelly bean factory. Something different.
Why tie yourself to this and try to convince yourself that if you arenāt actively growing grass, you arenāt working. Bullshit.
So thatās my list. And Iām giving it to you, so you can do as you wish. But if any of this resonates with you, I implore you, I beg you, to stand up for yourself by standing down and unwinding that rubber band.
Before it snaps and breaks.
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